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 I know you need to rest in order for your allergy to heel...
But could you just please let me off just for tomorrow and the day after???
After that when i am working you can rest as long as possible!
Seriously! U can even rest for a week!
Just let me go for just tomorrow and the day after and on 29 Dec can?!!
urgh~
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You may think I am heartless but I am not!~
I already have plans with my best friend.
And I am the one who always cancel our plan cause I need to help out at the stall ....
~Firstly , I cannot help you tomorrow is because we have already planed it.
It would be bad if all of a sudden I say I cannot go. I know I am suppose to help you tomorrow but sorry i cannot.
Is not that I dun wanna help you.
~Secondly , I have/MUST go for the job is because, I wanna try to work outside on my own.
I want to have the experience of working outside.
~Next , would it be better if you are earning money and I am earning money at the same time?
Rather than I take part of the money we earn from part of the sales?
~Lastly , I felt really bad for loosing the $100 u gave me
So this is gonna be my first job outside and I am also gonna give u all of my first pay that I am gonna get after I work.
I know your leg and hand are like pain/itchy but is not that I don't want to help....is just that....I just feel that it would be a better choice if i go out to earn that $90.
Could you just spare me that few days off?!

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Woke up at 4am cause suddenly my right ear hurts...
From the inside...
I thought it was cause by the radiation from my phone because I place my handphone under my pillow when i sleep...
I remove it and place it on my desk...
But..
The pain is still there...
I toss and turn and my bed...
Unable to sleep...
I thought it was just a temporary pain in my ear....
I tried my best to go back to sleep but i cant...
The pain was....
unbearable...
I hurt so much tat it affected a small part of my brain...
Really...
The extreme right on my brain was also pain...
It was so pain that I knock my head onto my room door...
It was really unbearable!
i didn't want to wake my parents up cause they are very tired..
Still need to go to work the next day...
So I just bear with it...
So i just toss and turn on my bed groaning in pain...


I was totally feeling unwell...
But forced myself to go to work...
Cause my mum needs rest...
If she can't work,I can't work...

Who will??

So daddy told me to buy ear wax...
Felt better...But still hurt a little...
My dad send xiao yu and I to work...

My motion sickness is becoming from bad to worst...
The journey from woodlands to jurong east made me feel giddy and feel like throwing up...
When I reach..
I quickly set up everything...
Then pop a sweet in my mouth to prevent myself from vomiting..
But in the end...
I vomited twice...
After I threw up I felt much better..

hais...

So much problems...

After putting the wax...
I found out my ear started bleeding from the inside...
I don't feel anything when the blood come out..

While we were shopping for our make-up stuff wif fish....
Then she suddenly stop me from moving..
Then saw the blood going down my neck from my ear...
wah...
I was shocked!~
Even till now it's bleeding..

Tmr daddy gonna bring me to the doctor..
hais..
Hope everything is fine....
XP




 

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This years Mid Year exam results was really shocking......
WTH......
Totally unexpected.........


Is like those papers I had high hopes on turned out to be.....RUBBISH RESULTS.......
Is like I swear I did work hard for this years Mid year but I turned out all WRONG!!
WHY?!!
Is like it's a nightmare for the ME!!~
Practically the class scored badly......
Cause of the strict marking........
Like for Physics..WHOLE CLASS FAIL...
Got GEO EVERYONE FAIL...
For CHEMISTRY MORE than half fail!!~
For POA Mr Lim said he can understand why the class failed for POA too.....
Cause he did not have enough time to do more revision with the class.......
And he also rush through topics with the class....


SUper unexpected can!!
I go the shock my my life!!!.....

AT the point when I got back all my results....
I really felt like jumping down the building....
My mind went blank at that moment........
Do not know what to do......


Really......
Cause I didn't want to face my family with suck rubbish results........
At that point of time..........I held bck my tears...........
Didn't want to show my sadness in class...
During recess I could not stand it anymore and I started crying.....
Xiaoyu and Sam cheered me up.......
They said..
"What's the point of crying when it cannot be undone?!"
"And you have CT2 and EOY to pull up ur overall marks!"
That made me feel ABIT better.....
But I really dun wish to see or tell my family members about it......
Cuz I really deserve a big tight slap from them....Really....
hais..........


But I still dun understand!!!
Why is it that I study hard for this exam and YET still scored sooo badly!!
FRom my past years results....I can really say that this MYE results is the WORST of them all!!!
Totally unexpected!!!!
WHY!!!!

During meet the parents session on this coming thurs..
When my mum see's my actual mark on my report book..
I will totally understand if she gave me a tight slap in front of miss kok..
It's really unforgivable!!
REALLY!
She expects soo much more from me and yet I give her such results...

I know...
Even if I tell her I will work hard from today onwards.....
It will not work anymore......
Cause I have been proving her wrong again and again...
I keep telling her that but....It's just coming out from my mouth...but no actions being done.....
So this time I am going to accept whatever scolding or punishment she gives me and work wayy harder to my next goal......
WHICH IS for my CT2 and EOY to pull up my overall marks for this MYE.....
This is not the end of the world eve.....
You still have another try.....
And do not waste that last try you have yea!!
Prove them wrong!
I am gonna earn my trust back from u!!

I STIL remember vividly that I promised her I will work hard after getting my PSLE results....
But I took things for granted thinking that I have alot of time to improve myself......
And yet I still disappoint her till today.....
I still haven achieve all As for her yet.....
I really deserve to die.....
Or even get disowned by her....
I really have no face to show my papers or report book to her.....

Please do whatever you can to me so that I will improve...
I dun mind.....
I will accept whatever u do to me......
 

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Hate this...

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Why is it that when I see you guys I will feel like avoiding you guys?
Why do I despite seeing you guys?
I seem like I have developed the hate type of feelings towards you guys..
This is a a type of feeling that I can't explain.....
You ask me why...
I don't know how to answer you guys...
No matter how many times you guys say sorry...
This hate type of feeling will not go away...
Soon,
I will find out why....
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I Talked to my mum about whatever had just happened recently.....
Luckily I talked to her...If not I would have made the wrong decision...
She told me to "dun take it to heart...don't always keep the unhappy things in your heart...forgive and forget and you'll be happier....."
So yea....
About the last post I had.....Sorry if I was a little too harsh.....
But yea.....I will move on :D 
Thanx Miss Kok for talking to me too... :)

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Today the first thing we step into the class, Miss kok , Miss Heng, Miss Lim , Miss Wong and then Mdm Soh...
Miss Lim told everyone to off their phone and place it on the table......
This all happen because some of my classmates took some photos in class and post it on facebook...
Which was kinda 'offensive' ....
And not only that....Alot of people are also using phone secretly under the table...
And That's why all this happened...
:(
Miss Lim was like those who used their handphone during lessons before own up....you know yourself if you used it before...if you've used your handphone in class...have the integrity to own up...(In a very stern way)

So, as I am the so called 'role model' of the class...And I have used my phone in  class before ...JUST to sms my parents to bring things to school for me...ONLY like that!! I ONLY sms my parents during lessons!! AND yet! I still own up to my mistakes....And I also know that is wrong luh...

But others who did not own up were really cowards....Dun even dare to admit to their mistakes....
At least those people who stood up have the integrity!!
Hais...My heart just feel very uneasy talking about this....

Miss lim was like...take a look at those who are standing...
Among you is the CHAIRPERSON
WTH!!
I felt super hurt ok!
So you mean being a chairperson cannot have any wrong doings?!
It seems like being a level 3 leader must be perfect!!
I have no freedom for what i want to do.....
But i do know that using handphone in class is wrong...
BUt i did not use it for fun right?!
I use it for emergency!! like smsing my parents to bring things that i have forgotten to ring to school for me!!
When I heard that coming out from miss lim...
In my heart...I have already given up on being a 'role model' for the class...
Really...


Another thing...I hate people who thinks that I am the chairperson means I must be 'perfect' in a way..!!
I have been a chairperson for 3 freaking years and I am tired of being a 'role model' infront of my classmates and keeping up a good image infront of teachers...As in...As a chairperson...when i do a LITTLE something wrong....the teacher will say I am not doing a good job and all the ........!!! SOmetimes when I feel a little bit 'high' I would tend to do things that do not uphold my image as a 'role model' and people will say what type of chairperson is this...!!Worst still my classmate will say ' eve...chairperson still like that...' It's very hurtful you know!

HATE IT!!

Seriously...I rather not be a chairperson anymore than go through all this shit you guys say to me ok!!!
WHy not  try being one for 3 freaking years and understand my pain!!
HUH!!!
While typing this down in my journal...Tears are rolling down...I don't know why....
But I just had enough ok....
Always when the class get scolded, or the class is late for class is MY responsibility....WHy is it not the students responsibility to get to class on time?! 
I have no words to discribe all the shit i have gone through

Life SUCKS

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Today is the sec 4s last performance with the Band...
And is the Day they step down.... :'(
Very sad....
Everything went well during the performance...
Our Band played better than expected!!
Even though Mr Tan went super fast after the thril....!
When Mr Tan increase his speed my hand started to shiver and sweat a lot !
XP
During the performance...(1 hours sitting there...!) ~crazy~
Then I found out I was sick...
Most likely is yesterday's heavy rain or Wafir spread to me...
Then after the performance...eat....give our presents....take photo with 2010 Clarinet section...
Then Chea chee,wafir,Nazhifah,Izhar,aqidah and me went to CWP swensens to eat earthquake ice-cream...
With PEANUT topping....
I accidentally ate a few of the peanuts,and today my skin allergy is back....

I found that I am allergic to PEANUTS!!

Hais....Woke u with the allergy around my ears.....My sis say look like I got some sort of disease like that... sad lei!!
Hais...
Went home....my flu became worst...slowly....then got cough....luckily my sore throat is gone le.....
Slept till 11.30am!!
Too tired le.....

THE EVE

 

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